fuk my life already

i wish i could get an anxiety attack right this very moment...

cos i really cant study atm.

BECCCCCCCCC ITS JUST NOT COMING TO ME TODAY

WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

fuk

study hard all ==

-

heh im pissed as well. as per usual. im not even pmsing. i think im depressed. in that case, ill need prozac. alot. it will be expensive. i didn't move the whole day. i just sat here like a stoner. woke up at 7:30am. its 10pm now and i'm still here. my lips are really dry. my papaw ointment is some where in my bag. my hand is sore. its bruised. i am really pissed/upset. my phone is on silent. my phone has no credit. im really pissed. i think i will sleep soon. even though i'm not tired. nobody can sleep when they're pissed. i think i might take a shower. i cbf though. more i don't feel like it. i just listened to a 2.5 hr playlist of my favorite music. i don't know how to sketch logs and e. fuk. i ate 2 chocolate bars. i can't remember what else i ate. my mind feels dusty. like i need to sweep it out. but no time. since i have modern and maths. and english. its already week 6 now. 14 more weeks of school. can't wait. can't wait until november 4th. i must study. i must ignore people who stress me out. i must relax my brain. i am really pissed.

to Yaein/Bec, i found the female version of Empty Frames. it was weird that Neyo was singing about a guy so i googled it. the female version is so much better. song is soo nice.

*

Empty Frames by Lauren

I can feel the raindrops, slowly falling
And they're calling for,
They keep calling for
My knight in shining armour,
Come and save me,
Cause im drowning in pain.

I've been hurt
By his mistakes,
So come and take me awayy.

I put him first,
I thought he'd stay,
But he couldnt weather the storm
So he left me in the rain

Over time,
Pictures fade,
All that's left are these empty frames;
Sleepless nights,
Stormy days,
I've got proof that people change,
And all that's left are these empty frames.

Can you hear these teardrops
Hit my pillow?
They keep falling,
Cause I kept falling for your
Dozen thorny roses,
Now I'm bleeding,
And I'm lonely again.

Now I'm hurt,
It's my mistake,
I should've known right away
I put him first,
I thought he'd stay,
But he couldn't weather the storm
So he left me in the rain.

Over time,
Pictures fade,
All that's left are these empty frames;
Sleepless nights,
Stormy days,
I've got proof that people change;

Long after the smiles all fade away,
All this endless pain,
All this empty space;

Sleepless nights,
Stormy days,
I've got proof that people change;
Over time,
Pictures fade,
All that's left are these empty frames.

its been a while, all

hi all, its been a while

no not really, since i see you all at school

ie. hopefully the only people who reads this blog are ppl in our group, or else youre all stalkers go away harharharrrrrrrr :)

soooooo...

atm im at chatswood library in the kiddies section writing THIS

obviously my life has come to the stage where i am now UNABLE TO FUKING STUDY in a library (OR AT HOME) unless i come to realise that i will become a hobo later on in life... but atm i cant really get that in my head cos I DONT KNOW WHY

did that even make sense

anyway

hm

im waiting for bec to come, becauseeee i was such a good girl, waking up at 8am this morning to go to both english and maths tutoring... yeah i know fuk im gna ace life

ok im not making any sense at all but yeah whatever

becs coming now because i have no one to eat lunch with and i am effing hungry, cos im a beast during the hsc

my appetite is amazing sometimes.

i am moving in the holidays by the way.. to my house in mosman.

finally.

though im not really excited

cos fuk, trials are soon after the holidays

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand my mother and sister dont realise how much moving houses will distract me and be of a hassle to me.

they just dont realise

so i had a cry the day before yesterday about that.

but yeah whatever.

ha but ill be able to drive in a month

ie. NO PUBLIC TRANSPORT EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER AGAIN IN MY LIFE

probably not

but yeah

im gna drive to school and to library and shit

cos i hate public transport like that.

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

fuk

a few minutes ago, i was staring at my eco book thinking what the fuck it was talking about

and thinking about why the fuk i chose to do economics

and realised AH its because all my other subjects scale me down

ie. visual arts

dont get me wrong though, i love art

and yous probably all know by now

but it will scale me down

and art theory is shit hard

no fuking joke

unless you think 'why isnt reality real?' is easy stuff

fukkkk bec is taking her timeeeeeee

hmmm

so

my life has come to the time where i am antisocial as fuk, and emo as fuk

i also get fuking stressed and worried EVERY SINGLE DAY about what exams will be like, and what ill have to study for, etc etc

im sure most of yous are like that too

but yeah

all will be better sooooon...

we'll only have to cope with this shit for just a little longerrrrrrrrrr

fuk im starting to ramble on about nothing again, due to the EXTREMELY TAKING-TIME GIRL REBECCA CUI 

hahaha im able to say that now... but if i said that last week... LOLLLLLL

i dont want to imagine what would have come of me

fuk that girl was pmsed

hahahahhhahahahahahahhahahahahahah :):):):):):):)::)):)):

i love you,, dont kill me again, like you nearly did last week

wellllllllllllllllllll

ill just stare out into space now, while i wait for pms-lady to come

good luck everyone for the rest of assessments

study hard and hopefully your effort will show in your marks :):)

i dont want to study bcos im so unmotivated.

why study when i cant get the marks?

bec

doesnt wanna study.

whats wrong with me i really need to stop procrastinating.

University of Newcastle

Bachelor of Medicine - JMP Admission and Selection Policy

3.2.     Academic Requirements

To satisfy the academic requirement, an applicant must:

1. have achieved a UAI of at least 93.8 in the New South Wales Higher School Certificate (or interstate equivalent), or 90.6 (or equivalent) at a school in a designated rural or remote location. 

3.3.     Personal Qualities Requirement

1. The Assessment of Personal Qualities consists of two stages:
   1. Stage 1 comprises the Undergraduate Medicine and Health Sciences Admission Test (UMAT); and
   2. Stage 2 comprises an interview as determined by the Joint Medical Program Committee and approved by the relevant Faculty Board at each University.

im so bored and facebooks so appealing, i dont even have my password and i still manage to find ways to go on and never sign off. cant bring myself to study economics..

just want to eat really hah

i think angela will appreciate this picture - Kobe Jones number one special :)

lindt cafe lol :)

for sooji..

 

zhong zi yineng did u eat it today i did:)

star city buffet rose~! hehe

my monthhh this is fun

yineng's phone

i'm doing this while waiting for SOMEONE to come online.. its been 19 minutes already.
motherfuk.

1. Grab Your Phone.

2. What is the 3rd picture of in your phone? a photo of a piece of paper which says "Jono wins again" with a really ugly smiley next to it.. god its ugly..

3. What's your ring tone? umm.. take a bow by rihanna.. haha

4. Who's the 1st person that comes up under M? Maria Macinante

5. Who's the last person you called? Jono

6. Who was your last missed call from? Rebecca Cui

7. Who's the 1st person who comes up under C? Chloe Won

9. What does 3rd text in ur inbox say? "Hey you know the last dot point on 2u exam notice . What is it :( ?"

10. Who was your last received call from? Lindy Shen

11. What does your 5th in box text say? "hahaha. omg why is she even telling that story in the first place... hm"

12. How many messages are currently in your inbox? 416

13. What is the wallpaper? "Jono wins again"

14. Since buying your phone, how many messages have you sent all together? i can't find where that info is stored

15. Who is the 7th message from in your inbox? YAY its Yaein Kim

16. Who's the 1st person who comes up under B? Bella

17. How many bars of signal do you currently have? 3

18. What network are you on? Three

19. Name every person you have text messages from inbox? oh my lord... i'm not gonna do this

20. What does your 20th text message in your inbox say? "ahahaha! u no wats funny yineng?"

21. Who is the first person in your contacts? Adya Goswami

22. Who is the last name in your contacts? . Jono Baby

23. What does the bottom text in your inbox say? "Happy birthday hunny!! hope that you have a good day!! have fun baby and it was good seeing you babe.. love you baby" via brother's phone.
HEHE i kept my bday msgs from March.

24. What is your screen saver? the time

25. What is your balance? $55.05 left, 112 minutes and 30 seconds free minutes to Three left

26. Who is the last person under H? Yoon Han (goes by last name too)

27. What is your bluetooth name? Yineng:) i think

28. How many numbers are in your phone? 110

29. Whats the first video on your phone of? a secret video of Linda that i took :P

30. Could you live without it? never

my loves goodluck on the maths test tmro.

you`ll all do well i know it.

if youre reading this before tmro stop going on the internet.

x.

time killer . sorry

1.Grab Your Phone. 

2. What is the 3rd picture of in your phone?
me and my mother :)

3. What's your ring tone?
eh eh eh eh and nighttt 

4. Who's the 1st person that comes up under M?
maria macinate

5. Who's the last person you called?
fan zhou

6. Who was your last missed call from?
i havent missed a call in ages, mum but that was cos i called my own phone to find it, before that 0421... i dunno who it is i didnt save the number

7. Who's the 1st person who comes up under C?
cass mao

8. Who's your speed dial number 2?
none

9. What does 3rd text in ur inbox say?
"finished?"

10. Who was your last received call from?

fan zhou

11. What does your 5th in box text say?
"do you want me to take laptop or no?"

12. How many messages are currently in your in box?
dont know how to check, my phone groups smses under name

13. What is the wallpaper?
me & soojiface

14. Since buying your phone, how many messages have you sent all together?
i dont know thats a bad question

15. Who is the 7th message from in your in box?
sooji

16. Who's the 1st person who comes up under B?
bella seo

17. How many bars of signal do you currently have?
2..

18. What network are you on?
3

19. Name every person you have text messages from in box?
this is including people iv sent message too.. just how my phoen works

jeffrey tse, sooji kim, yaein kim, jessica leung, david kim, yineng liu, geoffrey cheng, nick onine, fan zhou, 333 voicemail, kevin wong, william lee random number, jacinda choi, 3, william lee, jenny lee, waiyico, rose zhang, cass mao, justin phan, yaein kim another number, helen tang, jess ng, chris kwong, sarah koo, owen xu, cecily xu, owen xu random number, lulu cui, james wu, mum, conan kwan, angela lee, random number, yaein random number it hink, natalie ung, alex chan, obed oei ..

these messages date back to april LOL

20. What does your 20th text message in your in box say?
"yup where are u"

21. Who is the first person in your contacts?
alex chan 

22. Who is the last name in your contacts?
yineng liu

23. What does the bottom text in your inbox say?
"ROAR. a bit late LOL. we shall walk around soon then =] ttyl"

24. What is your screen saver?
balck..

25. What is Your balance?
"youved used 230.30 of your 350$ cap and have 119.70 left. you've used 184 minutes 30 seconds of youre included 300 minutes (free 3 to 3)"

26. Who is the last person under H?
this is so annoying just ask all at one go please
helen tang

27. What is your bluetooth name?
Rebecca Cui's Smartphone i think

28. How many numbers are in your phone?
not many at all..

29.Whats the first video on your phone of?
its a default one coems with the fone of some kid blowing abubble.. this is the first time iv watched it lol. i think its her birthday party

30. Could you live without it?
nahh 

dedicated to fan

you're driving and you see a car

its pretty,

you might like it.

but only go for it if it suits you and your age.

keep your eyes on the road ahead, 

there will be something perfect :)

bec.

what do you think??

2U paper

anybody know the exercises in Cambridge for 2U test on Tuesday?!

Chapter 12, Chapter 6 .. -_-!!

??

21st of may 2009.
only 5months & a bit to go...

1. nobodys cares for any of your pointless, snarky remarks and attempted 'comforting' where your only motif is to make your own fucking self seem better..
2. i hate you hsc
3. you are so rude. and selfish. and so self centred. some 'friend' you are.......

bye
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FIRSTLY, YOU ARE THE BIGGEST, SADDEST COPY CAT ALIVE. PLEASE STOP COPYING PEOPLE GIRL OMGGGGGGGGGGG LOL ITS KINDA FUNNY COS YOU TRY DO IT KINDA SNEAKILY AND SHIT?? I GUESS ITS KINDA ENTERTAINING. UM YEAH BUT DONT THINK YOU ARE FULLY IN THE KNOW AND UP TO DATE, TRENDY OR SOME SHIT COS YOU EVIDENTLY JUST COPY WHAT OTHER PPL SAY AND DO AND WAYS OF DRESS.. ERR.. HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!! AND GUESS WHAT?? YOU'RE TWO FACED AS WELL HAAAA IT JUST GETS BETTER! you don't fool me with your sucking up and shit. just lay off please, i dont need people sucking my cock in front of others when they treat me like shit the minute we're not around other people. you think you got power? fuk off man. and stop talking about me and my friends as gossip. we don't need that kind of shit yeah? go find someone else to talk about to your tb friends lol just fuk off. even if you dress, speak and behave like someone who is 'trendy' and up-to-date doesnt mean people will respect you. as soon as people see who you really are they recoil in disgust. lol, i've been there done that.
OH YEAH AND FUKIN TOO MANY TWO-FACED CUNTS OUT THERE!! STICK TO ONE STORY AND DONT TRY PLEASE EVERYONE WITH EMBARRASSINGLY NOTICEABLE MANIPULATIONS OF THE TRUTH. STOP TRYING TO SAVE YOUR ASS!! and stop bitching about your so-called friends. does bitching about your friends make you feel prettier or some shit? cos it's not showing. fukin LOL. SAD SAD SAD! nobody takes yous seriously HAA!! do you actually think you're fooling people by adopting their view as yours. like fuk off man, you're just jealous of your friends so you need to bitch about them to feel better about your self. tragic life you have. fukin ever heard of karma you bitches. fukin dont come bitching to me about your friends when i know that you're saying shit about me behind my back as well lol. haaaaaaaaa fuking think you're sneaky and shit and that nobody knows you're sly err lol next time do a better job yeah?? hahahahha. yes dont try befriend us when you need us as 'support'. hahahahhahahaha and dont insult the way i look. i know you fukin do lol. fuk off. it'd take eternity to list out yours.
oh yeah and stop staring at me cunts. i have peripheral vision you realise, just like everyone else, so i see when your sly little eyes look my way. i dont like it. i know you're either eavesdropping on my conversation or thinking nasty shit in your head. you stare at my work, you stare when i eat, you stare when i talk, what the fuk is your problem?? im not being arrogant or some shit, im just agitated that you make me uncomfortable by staring and so that you can find flaws and later bitch about them.
i dont even know when i started to dislike you bastards.
maybe cos you fukin backstabbed me somewhere in our friendship. haaha. maybe you have a big head, think you're better than everyone else. and maybe you're just a pathetic liar. hahaha. i question the quality of your friendships with each other.

skinny/curvy

i know im a madd hypocrite, should be studying

1. I've come to realise that my job(s)…
is to try my hardest and be the best i can be for those people that matter

2. I've come to realise that when I'm driving...

i will have finally taken initiative to book a driving lesson like i told myself i would ages ago

3. I've come to realise that I need...
to stop doubting, stop wasting time, stop giving up and just study

4. I've come to realise that I have lost...
thing , but that it necessary to lose to grow

5. I've come to realise that I hate it when...
im mean to people

6. I've come to realise the person I like...
is special

7. I've come to realise that money...
does not define you

8. I've come to realise that some people…
make my day by just talking to me

9. I've come to realise that I'll always be...
the same inside

10. I've come to realise that my mum...
is amazing, but i always knew that :)

11. I've come to realise that my cell phone is...
a time killer

12. I've come to realise that when I woke up this morning...
i was lazy as per usual

13. I've come to realise that last night before I went to sleep...
i was studying

14. I've come to realise that right now I am thinking about...

what someone means to me

15. I've come to realise that my dad...

turned 46 today :)

16. I've come to realise that when I get on Facebook...
i feel guilty..

17. I've come to realise that today…
was up and down

18. I've come to realise that tonight...
i should follow advice and sleep early

19. I've come to realise that tomorrow will be...
non stop study or cramming :( never again.. remind me girls..

20. I've come to realise that I really want to...
not let you down

21. I've come to realise that life...
is never easy

22. I've come to realise that this weekend...
will be better than last !

23. I've realised the best music to listen to when I am upset...
are the ones that reflect my thoughts

24. I've come to realise that my friends...
are the ones i depend one and share the best memories with

25.I've come to realise that this past year...
things happen, people change

26. I've come to realise that the last person I kissed...
is someone

27. I've come to realise that when people walk out of my life...
I dont feel the pain immediately

bec.

just for laughs .

the harsh truth ..
iv come to the realisation that il do anything to prcrastinate :(








lindas gona kill me lol .
read the fine print on the post it :)
hehehe bec posing in the corridors during maths, yeah im too stupid to focus properly with the camera -_-

helloooo

havent visited for a very long time ..
school + study is taking up all my energy, i barely have time to chew my food anymore -_-

LOL yineng im listening to your fob jaychou song !
its too .. mumbly for me to understand
& my chinese sucks so i cant even read the words .
ni de hui hua something something . zai something ge something something ...
LOLLL its in traditional so im even more hopelessYES to do list after HSC: learn chinese :( & how to cook decent food !


hehehe 77days til our trials
& 156 days til HSC :)
.. that means 172 TIL ITS ALL OVER ! (thts if you finish when i finish, 5th for eco)

i was gona add a countdown tool onto our blog .. but technologys being cruel to my limited computer skills

not long to go girlies <3
im gona sound so asian . but add oil 加油！

ew i cant believe i typed that

i stole Bec's draft

1. I've come to realise that my job...
is to one day give back to people what i've taken
2. I've come to realise that when I'm driving...
i will probably still be on my Ls when i'm 20
3. I've come to realise that I need...
to stop raging at my hunny and parents
4. I've come to realise that I have lost...
less than i have gained so far in life
5. I've come to realise that I hate it when...
i am undermined by others. especially younger people
6. I've come to realise the person I like...
is very smart and cute
7. I've come to realise that money...
sadly is one of the most important things in life
8. I've come to realise that some people…
are really sly. i see through it though
9. I've come to realise that I'll always be...
my daddy's little girl heeee!
10. I've come to realise that my mum...
is the best??
11. I've come to realise that my cell phone is...
soooooooooooo useful
12. I've come to realise that when I woke up this morning...
i got up and watched hannah montana
13. I've come to realise that last night before I went to sleep...
i checked my phone for messages and time
14. I've come to realise that right now I am thinking about...
how to lose weight
15. I've come to realise that my dad...
is funny
16. I've come to realise that when I get on Facebook...
i am wasting precious time!
17. I've come to realise that today…
was quite relaxing
18. I've come to realise that tonight...
will be study time
19. I've come to realise that tomorrow will be...
2 periods of extension 2 english dammit
20. I've come to realise that I really want to...
surprise myself (in a good way) with my HSC result
21. I've come to realise that life...
is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get hahaha
22. I've come to realise that this weekend...
was quite productive, fun and relaxing
23. I've realised the best music to listen to when I am upset...
my normal music
24. I've come to realise that my friends...
include only a small portion that are real
25. I've come to realise that this past year...
i changed alot for the better
26. I've come to realise that the last person I kissed...
is my hunny
27. I've come to realise that when people walk out of my life...
they end up reappearing int he future

bec is bored

me and my mum on mothers day <3>

had dinner at teppanyaki near my place - got grandma a petere alexander robe thing haa :) mum present is soon to come.. terrible daughter i know but i did follow her around for 3 hours while she was choosing the perfect white dinner plates -_-

welllll.. i caught rice from when the guy threw it from the other side of room cos he was being funny, it was the proudest moment of my life. remmeber roses btirhday when i got covered in egg yolk? rose's special birthday machien gun thing where she ended  up with egg all over the floor around her. xx

i think i broke the blog with my photos so i deleted them haha x

also i discovered some lady named Shirley Yamaguchi from like the 50s. lol she's pretty.

WHO DELETED MY POST ABOUT NEOPETS?????

haaaaaaa..... suppity sup yuppity yup LOL ~
i have many photos on my phone and since i don't have facebook i have nowhere to upload them but here heh.. fuk i am obsessed with this song 説好的幸福呢 by Jay Chou. i full listen to it on repeat. im not fob though... haaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. Roseyposeyroseypose-poseyroseyposeyrose~

thankyou bear??

linda + jumpies

yae + ufo

yae + me in maths

yae + me in maths 2 blurry

adya and me in history

:O

lol??

im a nerd?

funny photoo

my pictures of shenda and roseypose

my picture of yaemii


funny luvo

another luvo

yae studies

bec loves mirror!

blurry yae

original g

krn fob