Showing posts with label belonging. Show all posts
Showing posts with label belonging. Show all posts

Saturday, January 17, 2009

159th post, 13 days until school begins.

okay according to my english teachers im supposed to write alot so i get used to writing and therefore write fluently whenever i want in however long time frame im given, so here i am writing again. far out i've been doing english work for so long. today i have to finish my final belonging related text, which is mean girls :D and then write my as you like it essay -_- i've forgotten my thesis and everything since i havent touched it for 1 month and then i have to watch the shipping news movie which i borrowed and fuk it looks so boring why cant we study fun texts?? actually frankenstein is okay. i like romanticism, i wish i could write like those authors ie. beautiful structure, vocabulary and flow :D geniuses!!1


well i almost pmsed again this morning. well not almost, i did cos i kinda yelled at my papi lol poor guy and he wasn't even doing anything just like sitting there eating grapes.
i swear no one is online anymore :( im online right now and there's only 1 person online in my favorites group. see my messenger contacts list is divided into different groups:
1) close friends (17 ppl)
2) graduated (41 ppl)
3) high school (206 ppl)
4) misc (6 ppl)
and in group 1 theres only me online. well yaeins online now hehehe shes such an internet junkie :P
omg the new msn is sooo nice. msn 8.5 download it here




cool ay? :D

Thursday, January 15, 2009

trying to study but im on this. again.

omg.. i think im pmsing because i keep wanting to rage but then i have to hold it in so i don't make an idiot of myself -_- i swear my mum was eating celery and it was so damn loud and i was gonna blow LOL -_- fuk im trying to do english but its so damn hot i can't concentrate.. argh and i just ate a truckload..
fuk im not looking forward to school. 15 more days..great.. thats fuked... sigh.... i need to write my 4u english fuk................... i have writers block right now i really cannot right it and the laptop is like 80 degrees because its been on for so long -_-
the vinyl on my dining room table is sticking to my legs and im sweating -_- im in my dining room because downstairs is like 5 degrees cooler than upstairs and yesterday i could not concentrate AT ALL i felt so disgusting and my brain was all knotted and i couldn't breathe or think or anything. gee i complain alot -_-
omg biggest pms attack right now i swear to god.
omfg some girls i swear are so dirty -_- bloody biggest whores out and they have attitude as well as if whoring around doesn't take up all your brain capacity thus leaving none for creating smartass rude remarks. HA! well whatever since you aint gonna get no satisfaction from hitting on and hooking up with guys who don't even respect your ass. omg im so mean.. touch wood.
bloody hell! can't wait til im outta school so i dont need to associate with them bitches no more.
hehhhhhhhh.
oh yeh and i was talking to bec last night while i was having a boredom attack/heat stroke/anxiety attack/stress/pms attack etc and we like copy pasted links to some photos at the same time and omg it was the same photo :D hehehehe bec + yineng = fate :D omg do you see how my mood just changed??!?!!? PMS!! lololol
well anyway omg.. bec was like how do little kids afford such nice clothes/hair/eyes/makeup etc >_> okay when i was 13 or how ever old those people are, i wouldn't buy a $300 bardot jacket for myself and niether would i now! and i didnt care as much as to make myself look like a barbie and etc. and i thought i was growing up too fast, i guess not. now i kinda appreciate my childhood since i didn't care how i looked and all i cared about was eating junk food and watching tv hahahaha i was such a lazy motherfuker i swear and i was as ugly as a toad as well hehe
OMG I THINK I HEAR RAIN! IS THAT RAIN? OMG!!!! please rain its so hot RIGhTnOwW!!!!!11 ahahahahhahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa omg
im so funny i should be a comedian. hehehhehehe i always tell jono this hahaha
omg o yeah my previous post. according to wikipedia there is going to be a second mean girls released this year omg its gonna be shit hahahha look at the type of films they release nowadays, hotel for dogs?! wtf!?!! who wrote the script for that? i can't believe nickolodeon paid millions of dollars to produce that shit! and like rolemodels and yesman i swear they might be funny to an extent but their storylines are tragic what happened to the good writers? oh yeah and wtf is igor.. omg that is so lame i feel sorry for the children these days. even pokemon the movie is better than hotel for dogs and igor.
okay im going to blame the weather for my lack of productivity and also PMS. maybe later in the holidays i will be able to work better.. sigh -_-

sarah koo's birthday soon guys! 27th :) i remember so clear hehehe.
also kris kringle needs to be done lol haha trust us ay :D

i think im going to redye my hair since its all faded out -_- its like brown now heee omg yay its raining now it truly is i can hear it and i think the temperature just dropped as well. omg.. seriously im so moody right now im like feeling kinda happy now. almost happy.
heh i dont think it will be easy to be happy this year bloody hell. i still don't know what course to do.. fuk this is so gay. what is everyone else wanting to do career wise?
sigh im really doubting my preferences. whats the point studying my ass off to become a lawyer since a lawyer in sydney's average pay is 50k per annum. theres quite a large chance i might earn there or lower and that's not worth all the effort. hm, i think i will do management. i need to become more social.

okay its untrue i have writers block since i just wrote this post. heheh

Saturday, January 3, 2009

new layout + dedications~

hi everyone i uploaded a new layout i hope you like it :) bec asked me why no one was posting anymore!! well i decided to give the blog a new look in hope of attracting more posts hehehe. i also took away the music ipod thing because it was taking up soo much of my download -_- (i also removed it from my bebo). like i was saying to jenny wong last night omg my internet was sooo damn slow i almost died.. ha! ahh i've begun to read frankenstein for english advanced. i think its written with beautiful language; i wish i did romanticism for english extension now! i think the full language (although redundant at times) is really inspiring especially for my english 4 unit major work. i really wanna write like that but if i tried i would probably fail 4U hahahahha. wow i should write this in my 4U journal.. which i haven't updated since the 22nd of December 2008. omg 2009 everyone! okay at the end of 2008 i was really dreading this year but now that it's begun i kind of feel excited because i really have to take control of my life this year. its gonna be a challenge but a good one. and at the end of this year we can play for 3 months ha! thats if i work hard enough. i dont want to be disappointed when the HSC results come out.


i wrote myself a little resolutions list hahaha it has 39 things available but i've only filled out i think 27ish. i keep it in my wallet and its on red paper hehe cos red is lucky. i've already done one thing off the list which is get Ls!! yay i finally got Ls. i look kinda fat though, like i said to yaein, i swear they should have elongated my face or somethin cos my face is like round.. -_-.. okay i should write yearly dedications ay. i'm going to write them now but i'm gonna only write 2-3 sentences to sum each person up. (its a fair approach and because im a lazy fuk hahha) alright i shall begin now. oh shit i hope i don't forget anybody. i'm only gonna write my close girlfriends first. alphabetically of course.


angela lee
this girl is soo good at all the stuff girls are supposed to be good at such as cooking, applying makeup, doing hair and all that, far out im jealous! also in 2008 i realised (after having english together) that she is really bright and knowledgeble. also, angela, you're actually not fat, im not kidding -__-

bella seo
haa bella has a brightness to her, like she is able to make the conversation exciting and interesting, something which alot of people can't do sometimes cos it gets awkward lol. i think we got closer after year 11 vision valley camp if i remember correctly? bella's a pretty friendly person and sociable- knows alot of things.

jenny lee
ahh jenjenleelee we've been friends since year 7, i remember it was cos in music we sat next to each other ha! therefore we know alot of things about each other especially embarrassing things -_- one of the most exciting things about 2009 is opening our year 7 time capsules :P i wont laugh at yours if you dont laugh at mine hahaha. well in 2008 we didn't get a chance to see each other/talk alot towards the end of the year but we talked quite a bit in the first half of the year; hope we talk more in 09~

jess leung
she can work and study and exercise more than anyone i know and she is soo damn efficient as well; if it was me i'd be complaining every 5 mins i swear to god. leung knows where everything is as well haha if you need to buy something, she'll know where and what is the best or cheapest. ahh leungy i didn't see you much in 2008 so i hope i see you more in 2009 which i will since we all have to go school everyday. =p

linda shen
haha linda attracted many boys this year aaaahaha stop being so skinny and hot linda omg i feel so ugly =( nah im just kidding :D i have lots of classes with linda i.e. maths, legal, economics (not eco anymore though since i dropped that horrid subject haha linda has class when i have frees) and i swear linda you always end up beating me in exams~ smart girl. anyway linda don't ever say you're fat or have bad skin again or else i'll be angry!!

rebecca cui
oh rebooby my china pal hehehe who inspired me to write these cos she asked me about dedications. rebbyqq is an internet queen, i swear she's been to every internet site, bebo/facebook page ever invented! and she still manages to top maths. becs a geek =) she's funny and honestly is one of the least bitchiest girls i know. (even though she tries to be bitchy sometimes lol by giving dirties that look like flirty eyes hahaha love you bec)

rose zhang
rosey posey i think we got close at the end of the year which is good =) i realised rose has begun to study more which is good because i really want rose to know how smart she is cos she thinks shes not smart -_- haha i sound like im her teacher writing her report atm. i like rose because she's honest and i think honesty is a really really valuable trait, especially in friendships. she also has nice skin and i think is probably the strongest girl i know.

sarah koo
sarah koo, where are you! i don't think sarah's visited this blog before lol anyway sarah you should be more confident cos you actually are pretty~ sarah always has nice things to say and she's always smiling haa~ okay im not in sarah's classes anymore since we both dropped eco and she went to 4u maths but thats okay although i hope i see you more in 2009, i swear you were never at school OR intuition hehe.

sooji kim
hehe sooji is my buddy with whom i have much in common with, well we always seem to have lots to talk about LOL. soojipooji in 2009 you have to think less about the opposite sex, especially assholes alright? because they do you no good and you're better than them and you should study! this girl always looks good with nice hair, clothes and makeup hehehe. (you look good without makeup too)

vivian tham
i can tell ian anything i want cos we are that close =) we've been friends since year 7 and we've always been close which means we've been through aLOT of things, like actually alot of things. i think i know ian really well as a person and whatever she does won't stop me being her friend. ian, i think i was blunt and harsh a few times to you in 08 and i hope it didn't hurt you too much but i really wanted you to see some stuff!! anyway i won't be so harsh anymore and i hope we'll be friends forever =) <3<3<3>

waiyih co
waiyih has a hot body and she can eat whatever she wants which is like kfc and maccas and anything omg soo bloody lucky. waiyih also has really silky hair i dunno how she gets it but its so damn silky and smooth seriously everyone should touch it lol. i think everyone can agree that waiyih has one of the best personalities, outgoing, kind, nice, easygoing, caring.. list goes on, and she doesn't bitch as well man! hehe she told me yday on msn that she's 'blackie chan' now after going to cairns hehehe.

yaein kim
yaemiiiiiii~~ i think i can say that me and yaein are pretty tight hahaha we share alot of things, mainly bitching and pmsing but it's all good. we've had alot of deep conversations about life which really opened up my mind. i think we've had alot of shared memories what with life in NZ, younger years, common friends, common thoughts/feelings etc which is good and yaein also helps me feel better when im sad so thank you =)

okay that's it for now. i think i'll put up more people later. im gettin kinda hungry haha that took like 1.5 hours lol omg im lookin at coloured contacts atm!!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

i don't care anymore

i'm going to stop eating shit from now on.. i just looked in the mirror wtf im disgusting..
seriously i dont care anymore im not eating im not chipping in any more money no one tempt me okay!!!!!!!! :( im truly atrocious but you guys will still be my friend right?? no matter how disgusting i am ??? ... :( tomorrow im not going to eat well just as well since i already ate all the food i liked in the shelf :(... guys stop me okay.. my stomach hurts and stuff :(
modern and english tomorrow: GOOD LUCK FOR ENGLISH!! GUYS THIS IS THE ONLY SUBJECT WHEN WE CAN COMPARE OURSELVES TO THE WHOLE GRADE SO WE HAVE TO OWN IT ALRIGHT?????
im gonna get my UAI tomorrow as well... i only want it so i can stress myself out and therefore improve my real UAI outcome through pressure :D okay no one offer me food!!! well i'm gonna spend my 2.5 hours (recess, free, lunch) in the library studying so i guess no time to eat YAY i love how god planned my day out nicely. hope all goes to plan :D
this blog gives me a sense of 'belonging' hehe-
superficial belonging? mental belonging? familial belonging?
[is familial a word?]
well, everyone clean out your ears for tomorrows listening task :D

 
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