trying to study but im on this. again.

omg.. i think im pmsing because i keep wanting to rage but then i have to hold it in so i don't make an idiot of myself -_- i swear my mum was eating celery and it was so damn loud and i was gonna blow LOL -_- fuk im trying to do english but its so damn hot i can't concentrate.. argh and i just ate a truckload..
fuk im not looking forward to school. 15 more days..great.. thats fuked... sigh.... i need to write my 4u english fuk................... i have writers block right now i really cannot right it and the laptop is like 80 degrees because its been on for so long -_-
the vinyl on my dining room table is sticking to my legs and im sweating -_- im in my dining room because downstairs is like 5 degrees cooler than upstairs and yesterday i could not concentrate AT ALL i felt so disgusting and my brain was all knotted and i couldn't breathe or think or anything. gee i complain alot -_-
omg biggest pms attack right now i swear to god.
omfg some girls i swear are so dirty -_- bloody biggest whores out and they have attitude as well as if whoring around doesn't take up all your brain capacity thus leaving none for creating smartass rude remarks. HA! well whatever since you aint gonna get no satisfaction from hitting on and hooking up with guys who don't even respect your ass. omg im so mean.. touch wood.
bloody hell! can't wait til im outta school so i dont need to associate with them bitches no more.
hehhhhhhhh.
oh yeh and i was talking to bec last night while i was having a boredom attack/heat stroke/anxiety attack/stress/pms attack etc and we like copy pasted links to some photos at the same time and omg it was the same photo :D hehehehe bec + yineng = fate :D omg do you see how my mood just changed??!?!!? PMS!! lololol
well anyway omg.. bec was like how do little kids afford such nice clothes/hair/eyes/makeup etc >_> okay when i was 13 or how ever old those people are, i wouldn't buy a $300 bardot jacket for myself and niether would i now! and i didnt care as much as to make myself look like a barbie and etc. and i thought i was growing up too fast, i guess not. now i kinda appreciate my childhood since i didn't care how i looked and all i cared about was eating junk food and watching tv hahahaha i was such a lazy motherfuker i swear and i was as ugly as a toad as well hehe
OMG I THINK I HEAR RAIN! IS THAT RAIN? OMG!!!! please rain its so hot RIGhTnOwW!!!!!11 ahahahahhahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa omg
im so funny i should be a comedian. hehehhehehe i always tell jono this hahaha
omg o yeah my previous post. according to wikipedia there is going to be a second mean girls released this year omg its gonna be shit hahahha look at the type of films they release nowadays, hotel for dogs?! wtf!?!! who wrote the script for that? i can't believe nickolodeon paid millions of dollars to produce that shit! and like rolemodels and yesman i swear they might be funny to an extent but their storylines are tragic what happened to the good writers? oh yeah and wtf is igor.. omg that is so lame i feel sorry for the children these days. even pokemon the movie is better than hotel for dogs and igor.
okay im going to blame the weather for my lack of productivity and also PMS. maybe later in the holidays i will be able to work better.. sigh -_-

sarah koo's birthday soon guys! 27th :) i remember so clear hehehe.
also kris kringle needs to be done lol haha trust us ay :D

i think im going to redye my hair since its all faded out -_- its like brown now heee omg yay its raining now it truly is i can hear it and i think the temperature just dropped as well. omg.. seriously im so moody right now im like feeling kinda happy now. almost happy.
heh i dont think it will be easy to be happy this year bloody hell. i still don't know what course to do.. fuk this is so gay. what is everyone else wanting to do career wise?
sigh im really doubting my preferences. whats the point studying my ass off to become a lawyer since a lawyer in sydney's average pay is 50k per annum. theres quite a large chance i might earn there or lower and that's not worth all the effort. hm, i think i will do management. i need to become more social.

okay its untrue i have writers block since i just wrote this post. heheh

touchwood -> touchstone .. AOS BELONGING!

Dear all.
It is currently 3am on the day of our first HSC 2u mathematics assessment. This will count towards 10% of my school mark, therefore 5% of my final 2u mathematics marks. Fortunately, I will not be dropping 4u, HAHAHAH :)

However, best wishes to all those NSGs out there, especially my SNB girls :)
Angela and Rose have temporarily taken residence at ____ Cressy Rd Ryde "study camping".
However Angela is not quite focused!
SO GO STUDY PLEASE :)

Well ...
I was bebo browsing (as per usual), and came across alot of things that were very disappointing to see. to put it in layman's term "pissed me off".
I don't know, this may sound hypocritical, but there are just so many people out there that need to stop being annoying and grow up, HAHA. i know YOU are reading this. I can see right through that facade of you girls.
*quote from angela: "what is this... ew... she's so chat...."*
By the way, how ironic is what she said, after she corrects my bad grammar and use of colloquial language, that is really how she talks!
As I was saying, I know I'm in no position to talk, but really stop being a TB!

Remember what I wrote in my last blog about expectations and disappointment?
That is all, very very true.
The worst of it all is that I have learnt from the past, not to expect anything amazing from people, and normally I would not. But yes, I guess I'm just stupid, always making the same mistakes..! But don't worry, I'm so over it..

One more note,
I am loving the year 12 common room. Now finally ANA has relocated from our old habitat of DT4, and clearly understand the reason to why 90% of year 12s gain weight during this year. E.g. Yae in eating 10 Tim Tams/mint slice. Im joking I LOVE YOU . but really girls, slow down, we emptied our whole shelf in the short period of one day.
AND,
i miss my mother. I think everyone should appreciate their family alot more and not take simple things for granted such as:

• coming home to a ready cooked meal
• not having to clean up after yourself e.g. washing the dishes, making your bed
• not having to clean the house AND manage to complete your homework
• not having to trek it around sydney via public transport
• not having to spend $99999999 on taxi's!
• not being scared at night
• having someone to talk to always, even just about stupid stuff e.g. about your day
• taking care of your cat and freaking out when she didn't come home..

However, I'm really enjoying some factors:

• no one to argue with
• coming home whenever and going out whenever
• unlimited money supply
• restaurant foods daily

It's funny that alot of people think that I'm very un-self sufficient, but from this experience I have realised I am quite the opposite. I think that Yae In and Rose can be the perfect witnesses to this. In all seriousness, I think alot of girls in my current situation, would be out and about doing whatever. An example how I am different would be: today when I studied at the library for an X amount of hours and returned home after dinner to tend to my cat. Alright, everyone is probably thinking I'm the biggest geek out, right now. But yeah.. HSC is getting to me, along with affecting my weight, appeareance, and social life. In my own defence, I'm not a complete freak.

OKAY ROSE JUST CAME INTO MY ROOM AND STRESSED ME OUT ABOUT 3U AND BIOLOGY.. THANKS ALOT BITCHFACE I HATE YOU AND YOUR LION JUMPER. YOU'RE SO COOL WITH YOUR RAINBOW TOESOCKS. lol jokes !

P.s. If any of you are wondering why my english has drastically improved in this blog (and thus, it doesn't sound like me anymore!), it is due to the help of Angela Lee who is sitting besides me, correcting my language.
P.p.s I realised I normally talk/type like the biggest kid. (haha i made an oxymoron!) But this has got to change, seeing as our english assessment is on Thursday.
P.p.p.s In the future I will full blog properly.
:)


Love Bec Cui