i want a time machine.

what a life it would be if one could live with no worries. i think i should be more carefree, since all my worries and fears are eating me alive at this particular moment in time. yes, from now on i will focus predominantly on studies and use the remaining minutes on constructive things, such as reading, or taking a walk! as opposed to what im freaking doing now bloody worrying over little things. i think i need to turn into a robot for a while... since robots have zero thoughts and unlimited power. i'd just program myself to write essays nonstop and my arms wouldn't even hurt cos i wouldn't have nerves or feelings or anything, hence! i wouldn't be able to feel pain at all. and then i'd probably exterminate some annoying people. fuck annoying people are so bloody extra annoying these days.. fuking people who always end up linking to everyone.. oh fuk off please fuk i hope karma fuking mutilates your ass, not that im wishing bad things onto people since that would be sinful. HA!
i'm fuking sad right now :( ... and it's not even anyones fault therefore there's absolutely nobody to blame. i'll probably let it out on my parents again, im so sorry i swear i will make up for it later. dear god: please stop sending me bad news.. its really hurting now.. i swear i will be a good girl from now on, i will study every day and i'll be nice to everyone.
fuking ARJEIFJIEJIGRHGUHGVHNSEDRNFONCIDX....
omg.. i swear as you get older the burden on your back grows exponentially.. i swear this is what makes people selfish.. its cos they have so many things they have to worry about that they don't have time to think about others and the world -__-