if i fail medicine. it doesnt matter. ill be more ready for it the second time around. ill take half a year off and that will be fine. i love medicine and ill go back. it will be better next time. ill get my P's and ill know what level of dedication is required. i don't want to be lazy and scraping through. i want to be motivated and go back really really wanting this.. i hadn't even thought about wanting this in a looong time til rose reminded me..

i was thinking about why i feel like i need a break.. we had a huge break after HSC 'til when uni started .. but really.. from researching what to wear/say/do/act for the med interview, to results, and the late round interview, and everyday checking of medstudentsonline.com (you guys saw me do this.. LOL).. and then finally the decision of bonded/unbonded adelaide/newcastle etc i just wanna chill.. this shit is doing my headddd in!

if i pass medicine. i will count it as a blessing and continue, whether or not im ready - and will not continue this ' i want to drop out every day' attitude. i promise........

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